Archive | October, 2012

The Last Chance Survey

30 Oct

I haven’t done a survey in a while and thought it’d be a fun thing to post for a Tuesday morning πŸ™‚ I got this one from Ashley who got it from Paige. Thanks ladies!! Enjoy πŸ™‚

Last Chance Survey

1. Last food you ate?

My pumpkin pie steel cut oatmeal with a banana, chopped walnuts, raisins and milk

2. Last beverage you drank?

Milk this morning with my breakfast but I did end the night with a glass of wine while I was cleaning…

3. Last workout?

I went for a 2.5 mile walk with my mom yesterday afternoon. It was really nice and relaxing!

4. Last thing you pinned?

These delicious looking pieces of heaven (recommended from my friend, Priscilla!)

5. Last text message you sent?

To David…we have 2 small TVs we are looking to get rid of but Goodwill wont take them and we heard it’s bad to dump them so someone told us Best Buy will take them? Any other ideas? Well anyways, our texts were regarding that πŸ˜‰

6. Last blog you visited?

Lindsey’s at A Running TaleΒ : check out the hockey game and zoo that she went to over the weekend! She pretty much rocks πŸ™‚

7. Last tweet you sent?

I haven’t been tweeting lately but it appears my last one was…

8. Last place you visited?

Work…

9. Last time you did ab work?

Last week I did an easy elliptical work out and then did a few crunches on the stability ball…and by a few I literally mean like 2 sets of 30.

10. Last show you watched?

Private Practice – I’m hooked…

11. Last thing you baked?

An Apple Crisp which is all gone now so I am going to make another this week!

12. What is the last thing you Instagrammed?

13. Last item on your to-do list today?

Β I am just starting my day so my last item today will probably be to get the garbages together for garbage day tomorrow…thrilling πŸ˜‰
Make today a great day!
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Taste of Home’s Chicken Tortilla Soup

25 Oct

During the fall and winter months, David and I love having soup. I will usually make at least a double batch with intentions on freezing some of it but it never fails, we always eat it up before there’s any left to freeze. This soup I found last winter from the Taste of Home’s website.

When I was in college, one of my favorite things was their Chicken Tortilla Soup. I loved getting it and dipping tortilla chips in it. So last winter, I missed it more than ever and found a ‘healthier’ way to make it at home (and I don’t have to share it with a bunch of hungry college students!) The original recipe can be found here along with the Nutritional Information although I doubled the recipe but everything else mostly stayed the same.

Taste of Home’s Chicken Tortilla Soup

2 cans of Fat-Free Refried Beans
2 cans of Black Beans, rinsed and drained
2 cans of reduced-sodium Chicken Broth
A bag of frozen corn
1.5 cups of salsa (usually this is just estimated by how it looks)
A few cooked and shredded/cubed chicken breasts (this could also be from a can of chicken in water – rinsed and drained, or cooked ahead of time chicken breasts and measure to your liking)
1 cup water
4 cups shredded reduced-fat cheddar cheese, divided
Tortilla chips for dipping or crushing πŸ™‚

*Sometimes if I have any peppers or tomatoes on hand I will dice these up and throw them in as well

In a pan, combine all of the ingredients except the cheese. Bring to a boil. Reduce heat, cover and simmer for 10-15 minutes. Add some cheese, stir until melted. Sprinkled remaining cheese when served. And don’t forget to get some blue chips or tortilla chips for dipping. Enjoy πŸ™‚

Inner Beauty

23 Oct

Yesterday I put on a pair of jeans and realized they no longer fit, my very last pair that use to fit. This always brings me back to reality of what I usually am pretty good at ignoring but it’s the fact that I am indeed gaining weight. The ultimate goal is so worth it but my previous thinking still haunts me and today is one of those days.

I really believe that inner beauty is something that shines through the outside and truly is what beauty is all about but it’s also hard to have self-confidence and self-esteem when you don’t love yourself on the outside as well.

Some of this has to do with my own feelings towards myself and some of it has to do with this big invisible elephant I carry around with me and how others perceive my weight gain.

A year ago I was constantly running, eating healthy, and that was mostly what I talked about. Since my HA is being kept as a secret from still some close friends and family, as soon as I start thinking about how people are probably noticing my weight gain, I start doubting and feeling as if I’ve failed because I am not gaining the weight for the reasons they might think I am and that affects me and the way I perceive myself.

My feelings and upsets today are mostly vanity reasons and I feel awful for thinking that as I truly do consider every pound as part of me becoming a good mother to my future baby by building a nice nest for it but it doesn’t make gaining the weight I worked so hard to lose any easier.

I’m not sure how to get rid of these inner voices that are always fighting back and forth between gaining and still holding onto what I once had but if I can continue to ignore them and push them out of the way, I can maybe start loving myself again for all of the beauty I have on the inside AND the things I love about myself on the outside.

I have so much more to offer than how many miles I can run or how many pounds I can lose. I like to think I am fun to hang out with, I laugh at silly jokes, I am kind and I care a lot, I am creative, I am intelligent, and I am all of these things no matter what the number on the scale says. Some day I hope I can add being a great mother to that list and the only way I will get there is if I continue to let myself heal and let go of the what once was and make good with the now.

Because of my HA recovery, I have more hair on my head, all of my toenails attached, I can kneel down to my nephew without getting tears in my eyes, my fingernails are growing and are stronger, I have curves again and most importantly, my body is no longer fighting for it’s survival. It’s healing and trying to work again. My body from the inside is healthier than it’s ever been and if that means adding some padding on the outside and people notice it, well heck, does it really even matter?? Nope, not one bit. Because it’s my life and our goal to have a family and this is the only way I can do it well then so be it.

Sometimes being healthy is just simply about loving yourself and that is my next big goal. Focusing on loving myself, inside and out.