My Story

In January of 2011, I decided I wasn’t healthy for a 23 year old. After 4 stressful years of college and a desk job, I was going down a lane of weight struggles that I didn’t want to go down. I decided enough is enough and I was going to attempt to exercise daily. I found a trail near my house and begged my husband to go with me to check it out. We did a few miles of mostly walking with small bursts of jogging mixed in. I realized how out of shape I was but I was faced with a challenge and determined to overcome it.

After months of daily running goals, I fell in love with running.

Running for me wasn’t about getting healthy or losing weight, it became ‘me-time’. It was time for me to think, clear my head, relax, relieve stress, and feel strong and empowered. It was my time to forget and forgive. I felt free and alive.

After I fell in love with running, losing weight was easy. I started to look at food differently. I became more interested in nutrition and healthy eating. I love to cook and try new recipes (my husband loves it too! :).  It went from being an interest of mine to becoming an obsession…a false idea of perfection. Luckily, I realized this early enough and with a rude awaking of getting too thin, my real struggle began…the struggle to get my body to it’s healthy weight and heal itself from the damage I had caused it.

But throughout the ups and downs, with some regrets, my journey to healthy living has made me the person I am today and I hope that my obstacles will reach even just one person and help them overcome their own personal battles.

Unfortunately, HA was not the end of my road to a baby and after almost a year of medical help after my recovery from HA, and still no baby, with a second opinion and just about every test we could possibly have coming back normal – I was told I’d need exploratory surgery to get a closer look at why things weren’t happening. That surgery finally gave us answers, I have endometriosis.

We continue to pray for our little miracle every day.

“I have gathered that the moments that shaped me were the ones that have tested my faith and all that matters is the courage they gave me. I fell down and my fears were erased ‘cause in the wreckage of heartache and hindsight, a new beginning starts to unfold and if you let it, it just might save your life…so if gravity happens, then I’ll fasten wings to my shoes.” –Kate Voegele

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6 Responses to “My Story”

  1. S. February 19, 2013 at 4:39 pm #

    Hi, I kinda kinda relate to this. I haven’t been formerly diagnosed with HA, but have been ammenorheic for years (am not 31) and really burnt out metnally and phsyically. Would love to chat maybe. Email if you can or want!

  2. maureenbreakingfree February 22, 2013 at 12:58 pm #

    I totally relate to your story! I went through an extremely similar situation. Unfortunately, I went from extreme weight loss obsession and being too thin, to suffering from depression and binge eating disorder. I too am now trying to find a way to healthy and happy! P.S. I also LOVE kate voegele. great quote!

    • Mallory February 25, 2013 at 6:26 pm #

      I’m so sorry that you’ve had such a hard journey but it’s so refreshing to hear that you realize that and are working to better yourself and keep that balance! And Kate Voegele will help along the way 😉 Hugs!!

      • maureenbreakingfree February 25, 2013 at 7:08 pm #

        thanks for the reply and the support!! 🙂 best of luck with your journey as well!

  3. Stef June 11, 2013 at 6:31 am #

    Mallory, I have been recently diagnosed with hypothalamic amenorrhea and on the road to recovery. I have a very similar story to yours and can relate completely with you. I admire your honesty and openness to share this very personal aspect of your life with others, I just stumbled across your blog while searching the internet and am so thankful that I did. Thank you for sharing your story, I does help to know that we are not alone in this confusing and frustrating journey, I can only hope for the best for you in your journey to become a mother.

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