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Inspiration Mission: Hair Salon

24 Jan

I got my hair done last night and while I was waiting for my color to set, my stylist brought over a pile of magazines for me to look through. I get Better Homes and Gardens magazine from my mom mailed to me and I love it for home decor ideas & DIY projects but other than BH&G, I don’t get or read any other magazines. Most of what I read and look at is online and I do miss flipping through pages while holding something in my hand, bound with paper instead of a computer screen.

In this pile of magazines my stylist brought over to me there was Clean Eating Magazine and Women’s Health. I flipped through the pages somewhat fast, stopping to skim an article or look at a recipe a little closer. Last January I had a gym membership for a month and I loved sifting through their magazines while I was running. The only problem was that most of the articles were about losing weight, cutting fat and calories, do this to look a certain way; all articles that made me think I had to follow even more rules, add more “forbidden” foods to my list, and feel less about myself.

Last night I stopped on an article in Clean Eating Magazine (I think now that I am writing this I can’t remember which of the 2 it was, I did a quick look at both’s websites and can’t find the article to even reference…) about eating to improve and normalize hormone levels – perfect timing! Actually I had previously set the magazine down, closed it up, and then got slightly bored so I reopened it and it landed on that page so as a big believer in everything happens for a reason, I took the time to read it.

It was so interesting and really hit home with what I’ve been dealing with in my own body. All year I have been trying to research and figure out what I should be eating to nourish my body in my recovery, eating a ton of pineapple to help my luteal phase of my cycle, full fat dairy to help with estrogen levels, eating foods like flaxseed, oatmeal, sweet potatoes…all which help balance womens’ hormone levels. The article touched on each of these foods and their purposes and how they benefit you; all of that information in one spot!

Another thing I realized is that it taught me beneficial information that did not skew my own body image view one way or another, in fact I felt healthier after reading the article – how often does that happen in a magazine?! Reading the article among others including healthy recipes, information about certain types of food, information on being a better runner, targeted workouts, it all made me miss having that information in front of me…without the computer screen.

There are so many magazines out there that are good promoters of healthy living. Some good ones are: Clean Eating, Prevention, Health, Runner’s World, Whole Living, Women’s Health, and Healthy Living. Yet there are others that focus on some crazy ideal norm that they want everyone to strive for…

What are some healthy living magazines that you read or like?
What one do you think would be worth the money for me to subscribe to?

I really miss getting information from this route of media and am looking to sometime in the future read these more than just while I am getting my hair done. I’d love any opinions or advice on which ones you love! Thank you in advance!!!

Also, I will be MIA again next week but have some exciting stuff to come! See you all in February! 🙂

Inner Beauty

23 Oct

Yesterday I put on a pair of jeans and realized they no longer fit, my very last pair that use to fit. This always brings me back to reality of what I usually am pretty good at ignoring but it’s the fact that I am indeed gaining weight. The ultimate goal is so worth it but my previous thinking still haunts me and today is one of those days.

I really believe that inner beauty is something that shines through the outside and truly is what beauty is all about but it’s also hard to have self-confidence and self-esteem when you don’t love yourself on the outside as well.

Some of this has to do with my own feelings towards myself and some of it has to do with this big invisible elephant I carry around with me and how others perceive my weight gain.

A year ago I was constantly running, eating healthy, and that was mostly what I talked about. Since my HA is being kept as a secret from still some close friends and family, as soon as I start thinking about how people are probably noticing my weight gain, I start doubting and feeling as if I’ve failed because I am not gaining the weight for the reasons they might think I am and that affects me and the way I perceive myself.

My feelings and upsets today are mostly vanity reasons and I feel awful for thinking that as I truly do consider every pound as part of me becoming a good mother to my future baby by building a nice nest for it but it doesn’t make gaining the weight I worked so hard to lose any easier.

I’m not sure how to get rid of these inner voices that are always fighting back and forth between gaining and still holding onto what I once had but if I can continue to ignore them and push them out of the way, I can maybe start loving myself again for all of the beauty I have on the inside AND the things I love about myself on the outside.

I have so much more to offer than how many miles I can run or how many pounds I can lose. I like to think I am fun to hang out with, I laugh at silly jokes, I am kind and I care a lot, I am creative, I am intelligent, and I am all of these things no matter what the number on the scale says. Some day I hope I can add being a great mother to that list and the only way I will get there is if I continue to let myself heal and let go of the what once was and make good with the now.

Because of my HA recovery, I have more hair on my head, all of my toenails attached, I can kneel down to my nephew without getting tears in my eyes, my fingernails are growing and are stronger, I have curves again and most importantly, my body is no longer fighting for it’s survival. It’s healing and trying to work again. My body from the inside is healthier than it’s ever been and if that means adding some padding on the outside and people notice it, well heck, does it really even matter?? Nope, not one bit. Because it’s my life and our goal to have a family and this is the only way I can do it well then so be it.

Sometimes being healthy is just simply about loving yourself and that is my next big goal. Focusing on loving myself, inside and out.